Overcoming my fears
Overcoming my fears is something that I find quite hard as these ‘fears’ were formed from when I was a child and they can be hard to break out of. However, I'm not going to let my fears get the best of me as they have hindered my growth in the past and I really can't let it get to me now. This is such a hard post to write up on as it is something that is so personal to me, but I do feel like people need to know that we’re all human with emotions and different types of things that may scare us.
I know one of my biggest fears is definitely being vulnerable. I am a very private person and opening up about anything makes me feel very uncomfortable. It takes a lot for me to show my real self and to trust the people around me. I like to take my time to get to know people. (This is the Scorpio side of me showing out, we are known for being very mysterious!) But in all seriousness, I always felt that people will use my weakness against me. This makes it hard to make new friends as it makes me question if people are genuine or not.
Public speaking is another fear I have. Its something I've always hated and has always made me quite anxious. Growing up, I’ve always been quite shy and introverted and I don’t think that’s going to change any time soon. I always had (and still have) a really bad stutter so that gave me a reason to be very reserved and closed off. This also made it really hard for me to express myself the way I want to. This is another reason why I struggle to make friends as I can come off as unapproachable (my resting b*tch face is very prominent) and I also find it hard to approach people.
Opening up about the challenges I have is not an easy thing to do, (especially on a platform like this) and I was a little hesitant on doing so, but I thought it would be a nice way for others to get to know and relate to me on a different level.