The end of a decade...
Looking back at the past 9 years, a lot can happen. When you are in the moment, you don't really focus on time as we think time lasts forever. We think too ahead in the future that we forget about the present. During this decade, I had a lot of 'by now' moments that I expected to achieve by age I am now. At this point in my life now, I thought that by now, I would have gone through university and graduated. By now, I thought I would be working full time in my chosen career choice. by now, I should be driving, by now, I should be travelling the world. Maybe, back then I should have been a little focused on achieving my goals then I wouldn't have so many by nows and more I have achieved or I have accomplished... But at the same time, we shouldn’t beat ourselves up if things don’t go so much to plan. As much as we want to live our way, life decided to take us on a ride of its own and show us what we need.
At the start of this decade, I was 14 going on 15, Halfway through year 9. Living in London. The only thing I really had to worry about was my GCSEs. At this current moment, I am in university, writing this blog in my student accommodation and living life on my own terms. For me, this is where life truly began. This is where I started living for me and no longer for anyone else. There has definitely been a major shift in the past 9 years. Back then, I felt very restricted. In the sense of, I didn't want to be judged, I didn't want to be seen as different. I didn't want people to tell me that I have changed. I saw change in a negative light. But sometimes, change is good. Change equates to growth.
I felt a sense of happiness and warmth looking back at this decade. It's given me joy that I've overcome my hardships.